Welcome to the madhouse. No doctors or nurses here to pick you up and
dust you off, this is your home. Madness, how I’ve lived in it and reveled in
it. It is a coveted curse, madness, to those who know of it. A poison sweeter
than ambrosia but deadlier than nightshade. Oh, how it grips at the soul and
tosses it about in murderous winds, yet how every moment of it takes you by the
neck and each second of that gouging misery is just as addictive as a potent
drug. Not many people know of madness, they are lucky. They live in bliss,
controlled and swayed by their myriad distractions, for once this daemon has
seized you in its maddening grip, it never lets go, how you crave every moment
of it and how it leads you on into an insanity so profound you are so far displaced
you can never return home. It takes over you, lives and breathes as you feeding
on every semblance of sanity and control you have and pushing you off into a
chasm so deep all you feel is the rush before the splatter, and the rush, oh
that divine beauty, when every single cell of your entire being rushes forth
into a crazed frenzy and pounces forth towards the only goal that madness sets
before your eyes, ignorant and mindfully neglecting all the spines and daggers
beset before the path. Oh the pain, the pain that madness brings. It spurns you
on into focused, dazed rushes where everything is but a blur but you are
completely invincible and you dash forth bleeding from every slit on your skin
and cut veins and arteries aware of nothing but what you seek. And madness,
this vengeful being, spurns you on with illusions of grandeur and greatness
into mandatory suicide. And when your object is so firmly out of your grasp,
when you’ve learnt you’ve been chasing
mirages, it dispels itself from you leaving you cringing and regretting when
it’s too late to even begin amends for every mistake that the audience can only
see as wilfully brought upon. And when you are left with nothing, shriveled and
curled up on the dust and ashes of your dreams it is Mephisto again offering
its hand unto you, another promise of grandeur and greatness, the only hand
that reaches out to you, set so far away from any scope of help or retrieval.
And that hand, that treacherous, vengeful, venomous hand that poisoned you into
destroying yourself, using you as a conduit for your own seppuku without
honour, it is the only hand of God that reaches out to this fallen Adam and you
grasp at it again, the pain lingering, wounds and slits upon your being never
to scar, forever condemned as living beings of torture, but unable to resist.
For now, madness is your only friend, madness is your only God, madness is the
only thing you can ever hope to aspire to and become and you let it take over
you again. The rush returning, the might of God into the soul of Satan, you
run, you run faster, you scream louder, you laugh in your crazed madness as
tears stream down your pale lifeless face as your dreams only are blisters upon
your spine and you go through it again. Emptiness can never be a friend,
nothingness is impossible to grasp at escaping ethereally from your grasp so
you let madness consume you again. Again you rush in this darkness, stumbling
and being torn as you slip into deeper and deeper abysses, madness torments
you, leaving you to rot and returning as your faithful savior. And finally, it
ends, you cross the line to never return, madness is your only true being and
insanity is your love. Life has finally begun the moment everything you are has
ended, there is nothing more but just blinded screams and laughter echoing off
the walls of your empty mind, growing ever louder and louder, and you are what
you have finally chased after. Nothing more. The world is my asylum. There is no escape.